”So it’s up to you”

“and it’s up to me”


”So it’s up to you”

“and it’s up to me”

(Source: i-zayn)

I haven’t decided.

Have I lost you?

You who were always there for me.

Exploiting this butterfly out into the open.

Teaching me to spread my wings. 

The freedom I had once been hidden from, encircled me.

New found longings and desires erupted.

For better or for worse?

I haven’t decided.

In a blind frenzy, I lost my path -my wing was caught.

It was you.

Never letting me fly to far.

There are limits to what a butterfly can do, you see.

Hardheaded, I learned -but still never fully

You release me once more.

But for your guidance, I would always return

Relying on someone else.

For better or for worse?

I haven’t decided.

I was aware it wouldn’t last long.

Like many other chapter’s of this butterfly’s life -nothing ever lasts.

You left me abandoned.

Starting anew with you’re loved one -I bittersweetly bid farewell. 

I searched long and hard for someone.

Who was fit to take your place?

The person I cherish, and depended on could never hold another face.

Such an idea shouldn’t be possible?

Still, I haven’t decided.

Several occasions I had flown to you -and you to me.

But alas my wings have been clipped. 

Visits became few and far between.

Has this butterfly become less important to you?

I think I’ve decided.

Distractions took a hold.

Obligations shortly followed -hand in hand contributing to our demise.

In your absence I sought entertainment.

"Let’s leave things undecided."

Mistakes happen.

New habits begin to form.

I’m not who I once was.

This butterfly’s wings gained expansion.

You frown upon me more so than ever now.

You who I’ve entrusted everything to.

With this final piece of the puzzle revealed.

An element of myself you cannot handle.

It saddens me.

For now you’re gone?

You’ve proven you’ve decided.

-Miss Amanda Evelynn Russell

I understand the reasoning behind this action -and I accept it. I am whole heartedly sorry for becoming such a disappointment. Believe me when I say I am full of regret. I will forever miss you. Thank you for everything. I mean it. I love you.


There’s such a fooled heart, beating so fast. -David Bowie <3

I want.

I want.

I bought a doughnut and they gave me a receipt for the doughnut. I don’t need a receipt for the doughnut. I’ll just give you the money, and you give me the doughnut… end of transaction. We don’t need to bring ink and paper into this. I just can’t imagine a scenario where I would have to prove that I bought a doughnut. Some skeptical friend: ‘Don’t even act like I didn’t get that doughnut! I got the doc-u-men-tation right here… oh, wait it’s at home… in the file… under D… for doughnut.’

I should be slapped in the face. Hard.


Garlands of hearts are just plain pretty. 



Garlands of hearts are just plain pretty. 


He is still gay.



He is still gay.


(Source: everythingkid)